It’s been a while

What can I say, it’s been a while.

The last couple of months have been an absolute roller coaster of a journey. Not only has Corona created a significant amount of change in my life (and many others) but other parts of my life have changed too.

I guess I should really start at the top! My relationship ended, the one who I moved out to Australia with (yes I’m still here), which meant the rest of my life had to change. My living arrangements and my financial situation.

This post was definitely not going to be about the breakup, as really it’s not important but, what it did make me realise was how truly wonderful the people are that I have met in this country. The friends that I have made and the support system that has developed around me. I find myself struggling to keep up with everyone as so many people have shown incredible amounts of compassion towards me.

I’d hate for that to ever sound vein, but everything that has happened in the last two months has made me realise that people do care, all they want is the best for you and they will try to do everything they can to keep you happy.

Initially, I was going to leave Australia, what was left for me except for overdue rent and being miserable. All I kept thinking about was what do I do now? How will I survive? Will I be okay? I was really worried what would happen to my mental health.

In reality, I’ve survived. I’ve learnt so much about who I am as a person. How to survive when everything around you wants to crash. How to remain positive when everything is pretty negative. How to distract yourself. I did it and I am so bloody proud of myself.

I could write on and on about the last two months but I feel I should save some of it for a different post – as really there is so much to tell. (I bought a car and now I live on a dairy farm!!)

For now, I guess all I want to say is that I’ve learnt that I can accept a challenge head-on. I can take the bull by the horns and shake it around until it’s had enough of looking at my face, and then some.

I’ve realised over the last couple of months that I am stronger than I ever knew, I am more independent than I’ve ever been and I will do exactly what I want to do because honestly, I don’t care anymore. I’m accepting who I am, I’m putting myself out of my comfort zone and I am embracing every moment of it.

Here I am, writing again and I could not be happier.